Couldn’t sleep as I was too full

Ended the fast yesterday after a week and at dinner ate too much at one go

without enough awareness

I didn’t think it was a lot I ate

But for my body it was

I felt so full

I kept using peppermint till I felt better

I belched and burped like an animal

In the meanwhile while I couldn’t sleep

I felt the peppermint work on me like dissolving any bit and acting on any remnants of what did not serve me —— to prepare me for a new me

The tummy was full ——- and in the silence —— it occurred to me it was full of baggage exactly like how I lived with and carried myself in the last 20 years——- all the emotional baggage was in my tummy

I couldn’t digest them all and kept having digestive issues

And as peppermint worked wonderfully I breathed in it again and again and let it go all the way to the cyst and the keloid

I felt it work at these places and ask the universe and the oil to support me as I work at healing myself with awareness, divine support and tapping into plant power

I see the plant of peppermint in myself and I am rediscovering its potency and power.

And I just had to ask: now where is myself in the peppermint?

Isnt there a saying——you are in nature and the nature is in you?

I thought of how i watered the peppermint on the windowsill, I send my love to it and kissed it in the day, and it returned all of it , and more, to me at night when i needed it.

Too touched!

I find myself changing my internal speech too—— from just using essential oils on myself to asking the oils to dissolve or work on the parts to heal and now, asking the essential oils to support me to the fullest offering me all the light and magic and power as I work and endeavor to heal myself naturally and to restore myself to the optimum level

The change is viewing myself or my body as a problem to fix then and now

Viewing it as a miracle which can heal naturally given the right support or conditions

In it sits a belief that the power is one’s own hands and to see that the responsibility of well being is sits with oneself

As with all others —— including owning my experiences and past

I didn’t imagine that I could write this——- I forgive you dad mom and myself and I accept all that has happened

It seemed so easy to understand and to write but so difficult to fetch out, it had to come out naturally and it took me 20 years to

When it came out of my writing I was surprised it felt so easy it felt unreal but there was a certain release somewhere somehow I felt lighter and lifted

With all these process on the inner front, in the silence as I carried and processed the baggage in my tummy , as how I did emotionally , I saw my future

Or I projected my future

I asked myself how I would look say 2 to 5 to 10 years down the road

I saw myself in my mind’s eye

The body shows its miracle

I feel light i shine I glow my skin is glowing I m smiling

Every inch of me ——- I exude health and well being from inside to outside and is Healthy like never before with all scars dissolved

The body is at its optimum level of performance

I m connected to nature like never before

I m connected to myself and to the source or universe like never before

I live intuitively in touch always with the universe fetching out its whisper and applying its wisdom to my life and life gets easier better wealthier and I return goodness to the universe

At the home front all is in harmony and happy and healthy

We eat plant food and eat or use just enough to bring nourishment and joy to ourselves

We shine beautifully and is light outwards

I see myself living in a nice space with all the colours things that support me on all fronts —— a nice kitchen a nice bedroom a nice space a nice little garden a nice space for meditation

To be quiet

Ease peace joyfulness healthfulness wealthiness like never before

And so it is