Today I felt the body toughen up as I lugged the school bags

It’s a new degree of understanding- like in a flash you saw the muscles tighten

Ahhh so I am still toughening up! That was a discovery! I am still using that set of habits to get about my daily chores

Why? Of course !

I had known that method that habit for at least 20years

Shouldering. Toughening up with brut strength and force

Meeting a challenge by garnering all that I have. Forcing my way through without a care or concern for myself.

With all my might.

And as I saw the traffic light turn green I was ready to rush for it

I felt how

I felt my body stiffen so readily in a bit to chase

Forcing myself into the situation

Then I asked how else I could do this?

I tried to chase without the toughening

To watch the subtleties

And it felt better

Lighter

I continued to intentionally send light to the girl that was me, shouldering it all—— that was when I was carrying the bags

And I told myself to be mindful

Let every step make the difference

And this morning , HuaiHao saw the moon

Then I saw it again after kissing the kids goodbye

And as I walked back I saw the moon more and more

And as I took the last photo

It was as if o was giving the moon a face

And then I realized how the and why plane got close to the moon

Just by moving

The plane moved I moved

We must move ourselves first

We can change how things look or appear

Isn’t that wonderful?

Just by moving ourselves not anything else

Knowing this gives you power

And then I got home and saw the sun brimming at me

I ask it for all the light power wisdom happiness joy peace that I need to heal

And yet another lesson is — look up

Oh and

I used the Crystal yesterday

When I slept it was with me

And I wrote om on my tummy with it

This morning when I reiki myself

I used it again and felt its immense power

I began to draw circles starting small and from the navel outwards

Then bigger and bigger ones and still felt it’s pull and energy

How amazing!

And now as I finish writing this sentence

I know I m creating a safe bubble of space here that is supported for myself